I went to my first conference in November 2015, after having studied the Bible only twice for 10-15 minutes each time. I didn’t know my shepherd’s last name, or even where we were going. When I realized we weren’t going to be using phones at all for a weekend, I was definitely scared. But just for me to be in the car was a miracle. I had never left my husband and three kids alone for 3 days before, so I expected my husband to say no to me going. That would be a convenient excuse for me. But to my surprise, he said, “Yes, yes, sure,” and even gave me the money for the registration fee, plus $10 extra. This was so weird, especially since it would be Thanksgiving weekend. As for me, I was left without my excuse. I clearly saw that God wanted me to go to this conference, so I called my shepherd to tell her I could come.
I closed my heart on the first day there – I had coffee withdrawal, no nap, no break, complaints continually. I even skipped one service just to sleep. But the second day, from the first minute, God did not stop talking to me personally. “I did this for you. Do you see the cross? Do you see your sin?” I said, “My life is clean, what are you talking about?” He did not accept this, but said, “Do you live for me?” Then He asked, “Do you love me?” And I cracked. I saw my life like a movie – I had done everything for my name, and nothing for Him. I was working so hard to build my money, with 3 languages, 3 jobs, big house, brand new car. Nothing to glorify God. Everything for me. When He asked, “Do you love me?” I bawled, and could only answer, “No, I think I love me.” And He said, “Follow me.” If anyone else heard my answer, they should say, “Go away. Repent.” But to my answer, He said, “Follow me.” I completely broke apart and cried and cried all Saturday night, all day Sunday. When I stood up to share my testimony, I couldn’t say a single word without tears. In my heart, I promised Him one thing: I will remain in you.
After the conference, my shepherd asked me to come to Friday testimony sharing. The only way to do this was if I quit one of my three jobs, so I quit one just to come to Friday night. I understood that the word “remain” means “to stay.” I promised Him that I would come here no matter what. Since then, challenges have happened, bad stuff, good stuff, the devil tried to kick me out from this church with all his power. But with God’s grace, I kept going, even if I didn’t always do a good job. I am still here. He invited a 35 year-old woman, who was already married with three kids, to a ministry that focuses on college students. If God wrestled with me this much just to get me to meet Him, it was really God calling me here.
One thing has stood out to me for all this time: no one remained from the conference except me. The conference had 43 new students, 42 didn’t show up again (two returned later). I was the only one who remained from that conference, which means that from A to Z, this conference was made just for me. God made me feel so precious, to the point that He had 46 shepherds working for me for 3 days nonstop, with 40 nights of prayer before it, just for me to remain. I was the queen of the conference. Because of this, I am determined to never go back to my old life. The way God called me, preparing my salvation, was very real. His love was there, and He was there talking to me personally. God looked for me like this and worked so hard to get my heart. Why should I ever leave the place where He called me back to Him, and where He keeps talking to me? With no doubt, He is using this church to clean my heart and bring me closer to Him. God Himself is the one who prepared all of this for me, and I couldn’t ask for anything more.
Yes the conference was made just for you <3. I was so touched by that conference as well and you reminded me of it through posting the flier to it once again. I pray you and I would grow up as mighty warriors in today’s day and age! God bless you, you are a fighter. God chose you to be with Shepherds’ Church and for His Kingdom purposes.
Hahaha, queen of the conference!! What a blessed way to look at it!
You get younger and younger each time I talk to you. Remaining in Jesus does that.
That’s true!! She is getting younger and younger. Praise God! There is hope for me too!! Haha!!!
This is very encouraging and shows me that all our labor in teaching students and serving at the conference is worth it. If just one student repents and finds new life in Jesus, then God is pleased and all heaven rejoices. This inspires me a lot and gives me the hope and vision of seeing this kind of great work of God more and more!
MY CABIN BUDDY SISTER!! Hey Alex was there too remember??? God made that conference all for Inez’s students!!! Love you mucho Amira 🙂
I thought the same thing at first, but I think Amira’s correct here! She was the fruit of that one conference. When I asked her, she was like, “Don’t you steal my joy!” xD
Hi Jean. Alexandra was at the conference but she left and came back more powerfully. I mentioned there was two sisters at the same conference but they left and came back. That is why I believe it made for me.
😂😂 I see I see okay you are right!
I was also sooo blessed at that conference! I still remember the posters we created, pulling you out of bed (heehee), all the cool surprises the shepherds prepared for us; I remember so much from that blessed weekend! God loves you sooo much, he was thinking, “Amira, Amira, Amira,” before, during and after the conference <3
Thank you for sharing your life testimony and for reminding me how all of what God does for one person is not in vain. I am very blessed to witness your life of faith. Your testimony inspires me to keep working hard to save college students, and even God works hard for them as well. Grace and Peace to you, Amira.
Wow what a wonderful testimony of God’s love for one person. Surely his labor of love for you Amira was not in vain. May God bless you all the more to know Him and enjoy Him in this new life!!🙂😁
Haha. God specially prepared that conference for you. You are indeed God’s treasured possession. Your struggle to remain in Jesus inspires me greatly to do the same even when the devil tries to lure me away from Jesus.
Awww Amira you are such an encouragement!! I always enjoy listening to your testimonies! Your stories never get old😂 It’s amazing how God really works in people’s heart, always giving us the right words at just the right time!
I still remember seeing your’s and Alex’s response when you were at the conference sitting at the front table crying. I was amazed even though I didn’t know either of you then. Praise God that it is was like God’s special conference for you. It is wonderful to see when someone even from a muslim background and being successful in their own self-seeking life to come to know the Lord and now struggle to seek him. With God, all things are possible. What an encouragement that God is working among us.
This is one of my favorite posts 🤗!
I thank God for your young spirit Amira! I pray to see more of your posts!